What is to follow will probably read as both obvious and cliche, but it's going to be truthful,it's honesty should be seen as the main goal of the following entry above any main goal of discussion or meditation.
I'm reaching the end of my time here, less then three weeks until I return home and among everything I've discovered out here, whether about myself or the world in general, it is the simple notion of "home" that I feel to be the greatest self discovery. Don't get me wrong, I'm not going to come back spouting notions of how ridiculous the IS is whilst waving a union jack, sipping on some earl grey and watching Royal Wedding highlights. When I say home, I mean it detached from geography and all that said geography would imply.
The notion of home has reared it's head because of that which I took for granted, the things so small and everyday they fall out of the regular field of consciousness. Things like food, having meals cooked for me and slowly realising how precious that is! Things like family, by this I don't just mean relatives but my friends as well, those who I frequently refer to as my brothers and sisters. I miss them in the direct sense of being with them, but I also miss the assurance that they're only a train ride away. There was a strange comfort about being in a place, a town for so long. Sure sometimes it would get monotonous but it's nice to be able to go out and without fail see people you know. Nice to be able to know exactly how and where to go to get something done, nice to go to your local cafe for lunch, where they always charge you a little bit less for the quarter pounder with cheese and chips.
So it is that as I grow more accustomed to this travelling thing that I draw closer to it's end. I think I look forward to returning so, because I won't have the need to be as constrained financially as before leaving, where I was saving for travel, and will thus be able to do all that I wished to do before but couldn't. It's gonna be fantastic to see all the scholars who'll be home over summer. And when I'm settled back in and boredom ensues as summer dwindles into the past I'll be heading off to uni myself, a whole new adventure as it were.
When I get home I intend to try and sustain this new frame of reference as best I can, this new appreciation for all the I'm truly lucky to have; an incredible family, both relatives and friends, and a summer full of potential for friends, music, road trips, hanging out in Brighton and hanging out wrestling with my little bro. Don't worry I'm sure this strange positivity and optimism won't last too long, though best to write it down whilst it gripped me.
See you all soon,
Tom
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