Lucky D's - "Take everything your parents taught you and throw it too the dirt"

You know that feeling where you wake up with two marines in your room which was empty upon going to sleep? That's right over the weekend the jar heads were in town and there head is indeed as empty as the most empty jar one could imagine. Hoo-fucking-rah. Nah that weren't much trouble, just brainwashed douche bags.

Before this trip I think it's fair to say I had some strange delusion of the lone traveler,who through living cheaply and scraping his way up the west coast of the US by any means necessary approaches some sort of enlightenment. The common way trips like this are viewed, those during a gap year, is that a kid is trying to find himself and see some of the world before he goes off to uni and finally sells his soul into the slavery bonds of employment post graduation.

Viewing what I'm doing from the context of this trip alone however is to ignore all that has preceded it since I took this year out. I've been able to study that which I want to. Meet countless like minded people. Attend protest and perform activism, memories of which will remain forever. I've been able to write, to play music, do all which I wanted bus was shut off from before.

The whole idea of finding oneself, however cliche, is in my opinion of the utmost importance. It's not the experience of this gap year and this trip that is making me who I am. It's those experiences which are allowing me to become who I've been for sometime now, and as that comes out it evolves with each second that passes. Me being who I really am facilitates the evolution of my consciousness and my perceptions. Whereas if I was just being a product of my social surroundings and a reaction to those individuals within them no evolution would take place. This would be due to the fact that a false self is being projected at the situations and scenarios which propagate personal evolution.

These are my current thoughts, I may re - read this before I type it up and disagree completely with it, but there you go. Take it as an idea, ignore who's saying it. A thought on the issue inspired by Terence Mckenna who states enlightenment isn't some "Oh my god" / "Eureka" moment. It's a slow process. I think the same can be applied to the idea of finding ones self.